Sunday January 10 2010

Tonight he was watching TV when we visited. He was trying to figure out how to turn it off. It took a little bit but he did it. The other night when I came to visit as I left he asked if I could get the barrel. I said you want me to get the barrel? (Cause it didn't make sense). He said no. He kept looking up. So I was looking up. He said something about the Dr. I said do you want me to get the Dr? He said no. He kept looking up. He tried a few more tries finally I looked up when he was and there was a light above the bed (the only one that was on at that point) I then asked, Do you want me to turn off the light. He smiled and said- yes, yes. So with some effort and patience we usually can figure out what he is trying to get out.

Anyway today he tried looking for something. He asked where his pickle was then corrected himself. Where is my pillow? Well he had 2 underneath his arm and one he was laying on. I said you have some right here. He said no, and then tried pointing around the room and moving him self to the side to look over the edge. I said Dad what are you looking for? He thought for a minute then very loud said. I WANT MY PILLOW FROM HOME! So I called Mom and let her know.. I mean who doesn't want their own pillow?

He is doing so good to try and work through his words. Sometimes he succeeds sometimes he doesn't. We talked about things then he looked sad. I said do you remember the morning of the stroke? He said no. I said would you like me to read it to you? He said yes. ( I have kept a daily journal for him since day 1 of his stroke, so he can read it later when he is better). I read the first day, and he really felt bad when I read to him how we each reacted when we got the phone call from Scott or whom ever.. I then told him about the first few weeks and when we had to take the ventilator out, and how this is all in Heavenly Fathers hands and to try and remember that when he is feeling down. He asked me the other day. Why did this happen to me? I said that is a question that I can't answer but that he is still serving a purpose here, and that we are grateful he is still here. And that we are so very proud of him.

Tahna